It’s been five years since I choose to save my own life and do the work necessary to have peace and happiness. Today hurt my heart as I went to a student I taught in grade 7’s funeral. I taught her the same year, I made the choice to change my life.
I could never have imagined how my life has changed and how empowered I am as a result. I made the deliberate choice to enter recovery. It has taken a sincere willingness, open mindedness and honesty to get here. I have made mistakes along the way. I tried to love someone enough to want to change their ways; however, I now realize there is no magical wand to wave to make things better for anyone else. We have to want better and to do better if we want a different life from the one we are used to.
In the last five year, I have learned to protect myself with boundaries, I’ve learned to distance myself from people who continue to live in a destructive ways. I have grown along spiritual lines like you could never imagine until you experience it for yourself. I’ve become a respected columnist, author, entertainer and public speaker. I’ve loved, I’ve lost and all the while I have found myself.
The ultimate game changer is realizing I will never get my worth from the outside in. I respect my being so much more because I’ve learned to love myself from the inside out. All the love I was giving someone else, I’m giving to myself and I feel amazing!
You too can have what I got, if and only if, you do the work necessary to connect to yourself, a higher power and live a true and honest life. You can!
